i was just thinking and..

i think the reason why i'm not where i want to be, is because i can get shy...or something. i let people intimidate me in certain situations when it they shouldn't. i'm most comfortable when i'm around people i can be myself around. but when i'm not well. i'm not sure why but i clam up, get nervous, and get shy. its not attractive. im a personable person. but when it comes to being put out in the forefront i get nervous. being a leader something i've been told i'm good at. but just getting there is a challenge.

anywho. i think im done whining about myself. im gonna work towards fixing this about myself this summer.