i was just thinking and..

i think the reason why i'm not where i want to be, is because i can get shy...or something. i let people intimidate me in certain situations when it they shouldn't. i'm most comfortable when i'm around people i can be myself around. but when i'm not well. i'm not sure why but i clam up, get nervous, and get shy. its not attractive. im a personable person. but when it comes to being put out in the forefront i get nervous. being a leader something i've been told i'm good at. but just getting there is a challenge.

anywho. i think im done whining about myself. im gonna work towards fixing this about myself this summer.

Stalker strikes again!!

Hey..im starting to worry about my life and well being. He keeps showing up at my job but he never tells me hes coming..WTF?? Monday he came a sat and watched me teach class for TWO HOURS!! Its hot in the pool when your not in the water..but he didn't seem to mind..he's crazy. I then he popped up yesterday..and i stay home today..and i hear he popped up again. I'm not sure what i did.or what i should do...

Summer List

Last summer i witnessed someone make a list. Not just any list. No folks this list, according to him, was what kept him from becoming a man. He stuck to it and checked off everything on the before mentioned list. AND now, as promised, he's a man!!

Now..wasn't that inspirational? I'm going to do the same! My list is just as important to me. I've already found myself. I just need to get the necessary tools to maintain what i have..SO here's my lists!!

1. Make money!!
2. F hoes!!!
3. Get laid!!
4. Buy a boat!!

lol..okay for real though.
1. Get my licence
2. Buy a guitar
3. Get a car.
4. Build up a tolerance for kids.
5. Start writing WORDS to my songs...haha
AND FINALLY
6. SAVE MY MONEY!!

And hey...
Lets plan a trip! A place with water AND sand. And I'm serious.
NO more almost Panama City trips...the beach is calling!!!
And for once..its saying my name correctly...right inflections and everything..look at that..

Roxx is out!