*sigh*

Soooo folks its finally here. This time is it. I'm giving up my whistle to play one on one..I think I've been waiting for this..for a real man to walk into my life. And he's been here for awhile without me knowing i guess..maybe i've been here for him..and he didn't know it either. Woooh. what ever it is I'm extremely happy that my eyes have been opened. =)))

♥

I was just thinking....

That its amazing how easily my world can be turned upside down by a single word. And put right back into place with a smile or a small kind gesture...ha its weird actually. I haven't at all thought of LIFE because my minds been so occupied with my current. Even my most recent past relationship couldn't fill the ummmmmmmm....void...for lack of a better word. Up to this current date most all the tests have been passed, extra credit has been earned, even a couple gold stars have been issued. And frankly...I'm impressed. Now there are still some things that need to get taken care of....loose ends that need to be tied together.or burned off completely rather,....but things are looking good...i can say truthfully...I'm happy.

Lol =)

Omg Walt just told me im a real cool kidd!
Ha he didn't say that to you.
=)

Colors

Yesterday i had a 5 year old moment..
i started spinning around like a child and everything was a blurr.
Lately that's how life has been.
I spin around and all i see is...
A world wind of colors that shines of navy blue and tan.
Boring colors i know
But sometimes purple and red are in mixed.
A splash of green and some sky blue.
As my dizziness subsides the colors start to make sense.
Slick there's man emerging from the toradoe of colors..Two men actually.
One smiling. The other just looking.
One kissing my hand.The other just standing there wasting time.
Ha still. This is dumb. But the latter is still appealling.
I start spining again to blurr the images in front of me.
This time i keep spinning and wait for someone to catch me.
The latter lets me fall. Rather rude huh?
But the other?..the other picks me up.
Dusts me off.
Kisses my forhead.
And whispers "Your beautiful..." in my ear.
Ha simple choice. The images are clear.
The colors make since.
And im done spinning..


So i was on facebook looking through my notes and clicked on drafts and i see Colors, something i started in like June. So i finished it. I'm trying not to get all mushy and shit but when ever i start writing its usually for a reason. Ha idk.

Yurp...

Leandria is happy. For the first time in awhile. Im happy. Not having to walking around a males feelings in fear of hurting them or getting mine hurt in turn. Ha its a funny feeling actually being open with how i feel and not being shot down because of it. A real ass, genuine, on his shit friend. We'll see where this goes. Hopefully somewhere...