And it feels like...

Sooo yeah...I'm tired. You smiled at me today and reminded me of all the things that you used to do to make me smile....and i used to do to make you smile...and honestly i felt helpless..and empty. Or something i can't really explain it. But i thought of an analogy today...Think of a cake.. now not just any cake but a gorgeous cake...birthday cake if you want. And its so pretty but somebody just came and cut the cake and took the prettiest part and it and now there's a BIG whole in it...if you made sense of that analogy that's how i feel..and its so frustrating that a look from your direction will bring back every emotion i thought i had thrown away....I'm so tired. And i wanna be done...but I've come to the conclusion that i can't stand being your friend..and i can't stand not being that either..it hurts either way..Me and my friend had a conversation today about the Pursuit of happiness and every little wish is for happiness but honestly how can anybody be happy in real life with a piece of cake missing!!

Simple loves

"Its the simple things in life you treasure.."

Okay guys..this quote is def cliche` but relevant at this point in my life. My friends call me simple. Its because i am it doesn't take that much to please me. But as i was skimming through the Crayonz blog Gent was gun excited about a trip to Wal-mart, bed bath and beyond and idk target probably...if you don't know us you would wonder why. We could be kickin it in 608 or room B, chillin in the drunken hours of the night, and some of us waking up to the hang overs in the morning...but you can bet there's some kind of profound conversation going on or a new record being produced. (vibrate on that ho zzzz zzz zzzzzz)

You can judge us if you want to.....but we're still gonna be excited to go to Wal-mart.

Okay folks...

So i got tired of the other layout...it made my eyes hurt..
This one matches my picture.
And I'm still a rock star!!

Maintenance*

Hey...

New layout!!!
Its music note scribbles!!

Cuz im a rock star...

Soo im in love...

with my friends! No homo. But i love them ho's! I thought this summer was tough without my line sisters but then another ball of sunshine walked into my life bright as hell and 7 foot tall!Ha okay she's not that damn tall but i miss her and my two short ho's too!! And the sad part is...we've only be separated for all of 2 or 3 days! Lets get it together folks. We need to be able to cope for winter break. Or you could all just live with me!...(no down with Huntsville)

Okay maybe this will turn into a this that and the other....
Recent studies have shown that I Leandria Roxx is not a very affectionate person..
For instance I'll hold your hand I'll give you a hug we can even cuddle for a bit BUT don't get used to it. It gets boring after a while and i wanna see new tricks..no pun people.

Ha Dori!! Are you a fan of Madagascar? Because the Madagascar 2 comes out November 7!!

I'm getting a new phone!!..once again m shad0w has failed me....and i have to get all my numbers again.

I love my best friend!! He told me howdy today..so he's my best friend the cow boy..no one else has one of those!!

I hate it when ex's text me just to let me know that i played them..there's probably a reason why i played you either you tried me. or you did something to annoy me. And i probably don't care about your feelings anyway. And people lets get this straight i might me cute and friendly but if you try me I'm gonna be neither to you. You'll be exed and thinking about what couldn't have been because I'm not that type.

Hey! i digg consistency and just so NO ONE is confused on the definition of the word consistency here's the definition with an example (well look at God!)

steadfast adherence to the same principles, course, form, etc.: There is consistency in his pattern of behavior.

Makes a lot of sense huh?

BUT WAIT! The reason why i love Maya's best friend is because of his honesty/real-assness.

He said "Leandria you can't be the Coach and needy too."

I mean damn I've never been called needy so I've decided to be neither. I'm tired of casually dating because its not getting me any where. I mean i slick don't trust venom even if he's a walking damnit. Vandy is cute but there's no major connection and the guy with 20 names well he's got a couple of gold stars under his belt but its one of those stagnant romances..if you wanna call it that. Ha i see its time to play things by ear again.

I'm at home!!

I miss my twin!!

Front where are you??

Homework is calling my name..but its pronouncing it wrong...who is Leonadria??

♥ Ex Coach

Thinking back...

I know its been for ever since I've blogged. But I'm the type that blogs when something happens to me. And don't get me wrong things have happened i just haven't been able to put these events into words. But here goes.

So recently i lost my really good friend. But it seems to have been an inevitable loss. And sadly this friend and i have pointless conversations that feel one sided. Being the only one that cares is no bueno. And as i sit and think about the last conversation we had I'm reminded of the times we shared before then. i laugh to myself and sigh WTF I'm over this bull shit. This continual battle that goes on in my head. A friend once said.The brain and the heart are funny organs..always connected but forever at battle. Convincing your self of one thing but FEELING another. Damn...damn is right. Because its seems to be the only word that completely and not at all describe how you feel. Feeling like this makes you want to give up but then there's still that part of you that's still hopeful. HOPEFUL.. a funny word because in real life, it describes somethings that we wish for. And it just leaves you with thoughts of false hope and broken promises. And disappointments...summers full of conversation, long nights, passion, obvious sincerity, and then "reality sets" in and the magic of summer drifts away slowly into the stagnant fall. Im done..and i mean it this time.

Statuses

I have a new segment people!
I often speak in facebook status form.
Example "Leandria is writing a blog."
So i've decided that every now and then i will type a blog in status form.
And there you go.

Leandria is wishing she knew how to talk to you.
Leandria is wondering if this is at all important to you.
Leandria is trying to figure out why this means something to me.
Leandria is in Dorian's apartment eating noodles.
Leandria is interested in someone else but doesn't want to be.
Leandria thinks your a damnit adorable.
Leandria wants to kiss you..but don't tell anybody.
Leandria just digressed.
Leandria is wondering why its so hard to talk to you when it used to be so easy..
Leandria is might be out of questions till later..
Wait.
Leandria is wondering why you have to look for "her".
Leandria is wondering why that was in your status.
Leandria is wondering if she was on her shit....
Leandria is also wondering if all this ish was bull because in real life LIFE the person means something to me. But this ish that's been pulled in real life isn't what i had in mind.
Okay..now im done...