I have a secret..

I have a small phobia of the dark..so why are the lights constantly being cut off so that all around me in pitch black..I'm confused and flustered...my world has been shifted upside down...and i don't know why...

I'm having that feeling of something lying on my chest....its constricting my breathing, its making me second guess myself, and its numbing me to most feelings...

I'm about to take a walk..clear my head..