Some funny stuff.

Sooo currently I'm am dating a bully. Yes people Walter "Mr. Swagnificent" himself is a bully. Hahah and this shit is funny. After this man beat a kidds ass he proceeded to say,

"Now take yo cryin ass home!! Don't forget this shit and remember me when you sleep wit yo lyin ass!!! Yo bitch ass broke my damn glasses!!"

Lmao...he went to hard on that kidd. AND this nigga beat that kidds ass in front of the kidds little brother and sister and told them to shut up when the screamed and ran home. Now mind you Walt and the little kidd were the same age at the time but shit..this nigga went hard ass hell as an adolescent..Ha hell yeah.

Mrs Swagnificent*

Yayy!

Shouts out to Wan the t-mobile guy! A nice conversation with him and I reset my phone, downloaded an application, and now i can recieve AND send text messages. I know guys its amazing. So send me text and i'll send you one back!

my my!

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Leandria is pissed..

Gary's a bitch! I HATE TALKING ON THE PHONE! But when i try to text...Gary's bitch ass won't let me...a bob damn brand new effin phone and it won't let me text. And T-effin-Mobile hasn't helped me either. I want to effin text bob damnit!

I have a new nickname folks.

Mrs. Swagnificent.
Guess who gave it to me!
Ha i vote yes.

Okay..
I have somethings i need to get off my chest. I think i have an issue. I went to the mall today with some people from high school and one of the gurls brought her baby. The baby is a damnit. A-freakin-dorable and i didn't mind playing with her but..i still can't see me having kidds. Idk what it is..maybe it'll change if i find someone i want to have kidds with..

I've also confirmed the fact that i don't really like people.haha

So last night i couldn't sleep. I layed down and let all the things that had been bothering me for the bast 5 months come back to my mind. Bullshit and Life all flooded into my mind...i wanted to blogg about it then but didn't find it worth it. Ha honestly guys I'm over all the mess that happened, all the time that was wasted, the downward escalator was enough to shake me out of what ever it was. But then it makes me look at the male species differently. Its like you guys are all male, all have penises(sp?), and shit and then the few that have some kind of heart are better of as friends, i mean whats the real point of getting to know somebody if won't amount to anything but wasted time and broken promises? I'm pretty sure that last year i wanted kidds. ha idk..whatever.

My Christmas ended better we went to the movies together. Not a very good movie but it was fun going together..

I'M ABOUT TO MAKE SOME EFFIN COOKIES!!!!!!
I'll put up pictures!

Leandria is...

....slightly irritated by the lack of tradition that's being practiced by the Lott's. I mean honestly..we make an ass load of food so we can take a plate to our separate corners of the house? What the hell kind of sense does that make??? SO I ACTED AN ASS BOB DAMNIT. Why the hell did i come home from Nashville for CHRISTMAS BREAK if we weren't gonna be together for CHRISTMAS DAY?? And they didn't even wake me and my sis up to watch my brother open his presents. Clearly we do that every damn year..whatever.

I'm done this we're going the movies later.
Merry Christmas.

Unconventional Christmas

Ever heard of one? Well my family is having one. I think we're all to old to be dragged out of bed at 5:30 in the morning to open presents..or in my case puzzles. And apparently we're to old to have our presents rapped. I guess since we're all IN or PASSED our teen years there's no need to pretend the magic of Christmas is still alive. Santa Clause? I don't ever remember believing in him and Peters to damn smart to have ever believed in Chris Kringle. Honestly...

Anyway sooo apparently the person that you guys have kicked it with on a daily basis is a baking machine. Peep the facebook status? Yurp I'm hella qualified to make anything including figgie pudding. Ha and it was damn good. Anywho the subject of me baking Walt P cakes was brought up by James Brown...im not sure if you can make them....ha we should work on that Lalter.

Speaking of cake im still buzzed from my mothers rum cake...

I think im done for now..

I am....

getting drunk off the rum cake my mom made..omg...her and reggie have the same kind of hand when it comes to pouring drinks..honestly...

Guess who's back!

Omg LAUREN'S BACK!!!
THE LOTT'S ARE ALL BACK TOGETHER!

P.S.
I feel like Dori just blogging randomly like this.

Shooting star out!

Tell Peter Lott IV

I find that when I'm at home..i have a lot of time on my hands. Which in turn puts me in front of my laptop. So I'm about to go off on a rant/tangent about...you guessed it or Tell Peter Lott IV..Peter the Boy/Peter Man.

He's one of those kidds that you invite into your household but then later regret it because of the smart ass comments that comes out of his mouth. Humility is word he could probably learn and it would do him and everyone around him, a great deal of good. But him being the smart ass he is he probably already knows the word and just chooses not to use it. He's in a word, a jerk and the youngest lets not forget that.

But then there's Peter Man, the kidd that's smart as hell (still a jerk, a smart jerk??). Each conversation had with him is a hilarious and sarcastic filled learning experience, along with his constant tifts with the parentals that usually end with "your gonna get slapped in the face boy." or "who do you think your talking to?" Its not just because he has a smart mouth, but because of what he just said was so intelligent it took a minute longer for the degree holding parents to comprehend what was just said to them by a minor. Ha its all very funny. His dry humor, chess playing, book reading, sarcastic lookin ass.
Ha i love him .

In response to "What are we even doing?"

So xoxo your question is one of those that's rattled my brain and heart for almost a year. I mean honestly why give your all into something and only get half or less back. Its not fair. Then there's that mind set..hey i know he cares. So why break your neck to see them...driving different places just so that feeling of YOU missing THEM can stop..so you can have more then a picture and a text, but a hug, something tangible, to know they care. Its crazy how we as females take things more seriously then them. The question "What are we even doing here?" might not mean as much to him so in turn it won't get answered...so answering it your self might be your best bet. Whats the invisible force that's pushing you to be there for him if its not really being returned..and why keep trying. Idk but when ever i even think of my past relationship and wondering if if just maybe could still work i think of that phrase, "downward escalator." It makes me remember Life. and all the things i did for him and i didn't necessarily get it back. Kind of like a cheerleader. Idk hopefully i helped...

I think i had something to say..

Ever get on here and just feel like writing but really there was nothing to say? Its slick how I'm feeling...
This that and the other?
Okay.

I'm at home trying to decide what movie to watch with my family. Its always an annoying thing to do. Only because my little brother is a smart ass. And he bothers my life sometimes. Maybe because he's the youngest..{sorry Walty} but either way it goes he's an annoying, big head, little brother.

BUT WAIT my sister is coming back tomorrow AND we're having a kinky twist party. So when we're done she'll have nuthin but dreads in her hair. =0
And I'm gonna have purple hair finally!!

I think I'm going to start spelling nuthin correctly. NOTHING..there.

Today i had a moment. One of those moments that makes me want to throw my instrument away and start looking for a new talent that might've gotten neglected because of my focus on the violin. Something like guitar..or photography..I'm starting to wonder the REAL reason why I picked those things up. Not the bull shit reasons i said to make myself feel better. Anyway..I had to record my self today. And it sounded bad. Not even me just being extra hard on myself...I'm just being honest. Sometimes i want to give up. But then I'm reminded of the fact that I'm not good at anything else to change my plans now. Ha its a shame.

So we decided on Polar Express. When i was in high school i played this with my youth orchestra. Its one of the reasons why I'm so in love with the idea of playing for movie scores. But why the hell am i falling out of love? I feel myself toying with the idea of breaking up wit my love. Crazy huh?

I'm having issues with the Coach thing. Honestly i know what i want and what i don't want. And i def hung up my whistle for the season, took off my warm ups and gave my hat back with Coach Roxx* stitched on the side. But i swear..nigga's won't leave me alone. No bull shit. I'll be minding my own business probably texting or talking to Lalter. And an old flame will call seeing whats up. Or saying that i played them and blah blah blah. I'm rude so i don't really care...but it gets annoying.

Mr Afternoon Delight! Bwoooooooooooh!
Ha i miss him and i want my effing scarf back!!!!
(def NOT who you may think it is.)

Speaking of scarfs. BUY ONE LALTER!

Ha so I've decided that my other friends are the best. Its funny how when you hang with one group for a while. Then you hang with another. Then you go back to the first group and you notice what you missed about them all. Ha but these nigga's don't like cartoons told me i was grown and to grow up!! Well i say FUCK THAT! hahah

Wait!!! You know that song "We Wish You a Merry Christmas"!!?? We wish you a merry christmas, we wish you a merry christmas..blah blah blah bull shit.And then in the song people start ranting on about figgy pudding??! Well folks I, Leandria Lott Roxx, is gonnna MAKE figgy pudding!!! Ha I'll save all my bros and sis of Best Friend Alpha Phi some.=) AND my lovely sisters of CHOIR PHI BETA!!

Choir Phi Beta!!
#3 Fall 08
Chea!
Wait...what's my line name?

And Reggie? Why is the tagg Cookies and Milk?? Are you gonna stick your cookies in her milk???

Maya??
Frankie??
Dori??
The crayons blog is rather stagnant...
I'm gonna post pictures of crayons to inspire some activity.

Im think im done!

Lol =)

Omg Walt just told me im a real cool kidd!
Ha he didn't say that to you.
=)

Time

Its amazing how much people grow up and apart. Just how can you sit around and talk about nuthin like you used to do but not to be interested in the conversation like you used to be. Time is amazing. One of those things you cant get back. What was cool 2 years ago is lame as hell now. And even things that were lame as hell 2 years ago coincidentally are still lame. Ha idk same friends, different people..or maybe same friends different me. People grow up and change. Ha maybe I'm just being anti social But then there are the people you admire who are still silly as hell but doing what they gotta do to succeed and are still social. Ha idk.

P.S.
I'm starting to hate Beyonce and Sasha Fierce

Colors

Yesterday i had a 5 year old moment..
i started spinning around like a child and everything was a blurr.
Lately that's how life has been.
I spin around and all i see is...
A world wind of colors that shines of navy blue and tan.
Boring colors i know
But sometimes purple and red are in mixed.
A splash of green and some sky blue.
As my dizziness subsides the colors start to make sense.
Slick there's man emerging from the toradoe of colors..Two men actually.
One smiling. The other just looking.
One kissing my hand.The other just standing there wasting time.
Ha still. This is dumb. But the latter is still appealling.
I start spining again to blurr the images in front of me.
This time i keep spinning and wait for someone to catch me.
The latter lets me fall. Rather rude huh?
But the other?..the other picks me up.
Dusts me off.
Kisses my forhead.
And whispers "Your beautiful..." in my ear.
Ha simple choice. The images are clear.
The colors make since.
And im done spinning..


So i was on facebook looking through my notes and clicked on drafts and i see Colors, something i started in like June. So i finished it. I'm trying not to get all mushy and shit but when ever i start writing its usually for a reason. Ha idk.

Yurp...

Leandria is happy. For the first time in awhile. Im happy. Not having to walking around a males feelings in fear of hurting them or getting mine hurt in turn. Ha its a funny feeling actually being open with how i feel and not being shot down because of it. A real ass, genuine, on his shit friend. We'll see where this goes. Hopefully somewhere...

Yepp....

Leandria is indifferent.
I do what i want because I'm old enough to make my own decisions so please..don't judge me. I know we play about that term..often but in real life...lets not.
If i were here to please the world i would work harder to do so but that's def not my calling so...I'll stop trying.
Trust is an issue now a days. I say don't say something, it would satisfy me if you don't do it.
Not accusing anyone. Just saying.
Please understand that i love you all dearly but it was stated twice and stated nicely that its time to go home. Huntsville is looking better to me then Nashville is at the moment.

Merry Christmas.

Im sure.

I can't breath. I would love to be able to do so though. It feels like to be a lot of pressure is on me to go a certain way. And I'm not sure if I'm going to be looked at differently if i make a certain decision. 

Damned if i do. Damned if i don't. 

♥LottRoxx

Puddles and Rivers you say?

We all know i love water. I played in rain puddles as kidd and had cute little goulashes that matched my rain coat. BUT i was never for rivers. They're dirty and creatures live in them...and i know I'm taking the analogy out of context but the reality of all this is, is that I'm not ready, and in real life I'm afraid I'm gonna do the same thing he did to me, the things i said to you is slick verbatim what he said to justify the situation...and I'm not okay with that. Being frank that shit sucks and it hurts. And I'm afraid i jumped into a puddle that was a little to deep...that has the characteristics of a river but not quite...a stream maybe? Which ever body of water it may be, I'm starting to get caught up in the current, swept up into your arms and your smile. It could all be so simple like that one song but we all know its not. Our friendship was never really a friendship. There was always something else there. Something that kept us looking for each other after class, and texting during. Something that had me in your practice room during the day and you in my dorm room at night. Honestly the attraction is there it always was. And the promise of a relationship is there its very apparent. But the uncertainty is growing rapidly. I'm not sure, sadly, of what i want. The constant flow of fear....of getting my knees wet in the stream that's quickly turning into a river...and i don't want to drown...slick i don't want to kill anyone either. Maybe i should just get up and dry off while my head's still above water. And here's a thought..maybe i miss Coach Roxx..idk but in all this confusion of an analogy it still feels like somethings missing. Like this whole pursuit of happiness thing is going the opposite way it should be. That might be another blogg for another day...



♥LottRoxx