verdict

that's not the Lauren Hill we all know and love. i feel like she had little to none to do with the production of THAT song. and i'm so sincere. its like how they do biggie or tupac. putting they're already recorded voices on a track. but this one doesn't fit her words and how she's singing or even the content of the words.

its all about money in my opinion and who ever has access to her vault has no respect for her or her music.

i give it a D.

i was just thinking and..

i think the reason why i'm not where i want to be, is because i can get shy...or something. i let people intimidate me in certain situations when it they shouldn't. i'm most comfortable when i'm around people i can be myself around. but when i'm not well. i'm not sure why but i clam up, get nervous, and get shy. its not attractive. im a personable person. but when it comes to being put out in the forefront i get nervous. being a leader something i've been told i'm good at. but just getting there is a challenge.

anywho. i think im done whining about myself. im gonna work towards fixing this about myself this summer.

wuwy.

my sis (blood sis) is really being an inspiration to me. lol i mean really. Harvard bound. white water rafting and canoing every weekend. some other cool stuff. she's an evil canevil in the making i tell you.

i think im gonna try and be like her when i grow up. but i mean like me. make sense?
more traveling. when i venture outside of the stifling hbcu im going to expand my "thrill seeking" horizon.

but seriously soon im gonna get my scuba diving licence this summer.
i'm gonna make my summer list soon.

ooooooh speaking of summer. this is about to be a great one.
LONDON BOUND HO!!!

Youtube never fails

I've found a new asian guitar player who has the most beautiful and relatable songs.

Melissa Polinar.

really go listen to her.

So i just found out one of my classmates from high school took his own life..I'm not really sure how to handle. I mean i know that i'm still alive and walking around. But how close am I to losing someone else in my life? Its crazy because HE of all people is one of the only people in high school that was ALWAYS pleasant, always joking, or always smiling. Even in the most adverse of situations for him he would smile and would be confidnet in God and his power..

I was looking through his facebook and his last status read (yesterday):
"God please have mercy on my soul.."
Scary.

I just pray for his family. And my classmates.

R.I.P Phillip Hinton.

Alice.

I am not myself right now. I feel kinda like Alice. Who is Alice people??! Last time i checked my name started with a 'L'. Maybe its this cold...but I'm starting to view myself differently. I kinda want to venture out and be more helpful to the campus. I want to have friends other than music majors and in my organizations. I want to join other organizations. But the thing is stretching myself to thin by trying to be in three places at once. That maybe why I don't feel like myself..I'm tired..

That's it.

Oh dear...

Its a shame..i've forgotten my love for photography. I need to get back on it..
Pictures coming soon loves.